So, I didn’t feel super productive today. I didn’t do ANY songwriting, I did bare minimum in cleaning house and cooking. I folded clothes, but didn’t put any of them away, so there’s a pile on the couch and in a basket on the floor. I didn’t attend any conference calls or webinars, although I had some on the schedule (thank heavens for recordings). I’ve been sick the last few days and I still don’t feel like I’m back at 100%.
However, one thing that I did do today, more than I do on any other day, was spend time with my kids. I lingered with them a little longer. I let them climb on me. I sat and watched their cartoons with them. I hugged them, tickled them, kissed them a little more than usual.
And you know what? I feel really happy. I laughed with my baby. I snuggled with my boy. I read books to my kids before bed. I let go of the guilt that I would normally have.
How many more years of giggles and little feet will I have? My son still gives me hugs and kisses before he gets on the bus. My daughter still asks if she can sit on my lap. My children still reach out for me, cry for me when they’re hurt, and come to me with their problems. They still need my help, and willingly (usually) ask for it.
My heart is full tonight as I think of how blessed I am to be the mother to such wonderful children. It can be a challenge, but days like today make it SO worth the frustration, pain, and tears. I think I’ll make more days like this.
And maybe I will write a song about it.