Being a Mommy

Being Mom

 

Some days I forget.

I forget how extremely blessed I am!

I’ve been given these amazing little ones to love and to teach.

And that is AMAZING.

I was watching a music video today. It had a young woman dancing around with a bunch of her friends singing about how great it was to be young and to be single and free. A part of me wonders what it would be like to be in my twenties and not have kids. What would I be doing? Where would I live? Who would be my friends? And, most importantly, would I be happy?

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that we can’t live our lives wondering “what if?” Doing so will only lead to sadness and regret. Wherever we are in our lives, we can make it special. We can make today great! We are experiencing life the way we’ve created it. And, some of the experiences that I am having are experiences that someone else would give up anything to have.

So, for me, being a Mom is the best! I love it! And today was an especially good day where I could SEE it (I mean, look at that picture! Isn’t he the cutest?).

Whatever it is that you’re experiencing, breathe it in. Don’t let this moment pass you by. Decide that today is a good day.

-Ashley

Twenty-Seven

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Well, yesterday was my birthday! I’m now 27! I feel so great, and I’m excited for what this year has in store for me. I feel like something BIG is coming for me soon. I’m still writing, and writing, and writing! My husband got me some basic home recording equipment, and I am SO excited! I’ve already started goofing off with it and made an accapella track!

So, I’ve been asked to sing in my church this week. I chose a song medley called “Beautiful Savior” arranged by Kenneth Cope, from his album “A Prayer Unto Thee.”

What is your favorite hymn? I have a LOT of favorites, but I want to hear yours!

Have a great week!

-Ash

She Still Asks If She Can Sit On My Lap <3

So, I didn’t feel super productive today. I didn’t do ANY songwriting, I did bare minimum in cleaning house and cooking. I folded clothes, but didn’t put any of them away, so there’s a pile on the couch and in a basket on the floor. I didn’t attend any conference calls or webinars, although I had some on the schedule (thank heavens for recordings). I’ve been sick the last few days and I still don’t feel like I’m back at 100%.

However, one thing that I did do today, more than I do on any other day, was spend time with my kids. I lingered with them a little longer. I let them climb on me. I sat and watched their cartoons with them. I hugged them, tickled them, kissed them a little more than usual.

And you know what? I feel really happy. I laughed with my baby. I snuggled with my boy. I read books to my kids before bed. I let go of the guilt that I would normally have.

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How many more years of giggles and little feet will I have? My son still gives me hugs and kisses before he gets on the bus. My daughter still asks if she can sit on my lap. My children still reach out for me, cry for me when they’re hurt, and come to me with their problems. They still need my help, and willingly (usually) ask for it.

My heart is full tonight as I think of how blessed I am to be the mother to such wonderful children. It can be a challenge, but days like today make it SO worth the frustration, pain, and tears. I think I’ll make more days like this.

And maybe I will write a song about it.

-Ashley

 

 

Disappointment

I’m working on a song about how you feel when you can’t seem to do anything right. You don’t want to disappoint the people you love.

Whether it’s a parent, a spouse, a friend, or even God, we all want to be enough.

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You can impress anyone you want, but until you allow yourself to be impressed by your own actions, it won’t mean anything to you.

Can you see the things you do that are amazing? Or are you short-selling yourself?

You have to BELIEVE you are enough.

When you decide to stop bashing all of the imperfect things about yourself and start being impressed by all the good things you do, you will be much more HAPPY.

To be honest, the song I’m writing doesn’t have to say all of this. This is something I’m passionate about. I wish I could sit down with every girl who sits and calls herself mean things and STOP HER.

You are enough!

Your best is enough!

And the only one who needs to see and know that is you!

Then your perspective will start to shift. You’ll slowly be able to recognize the things you do every day that are AMAZING.

Please don’t give up on this. Keep searching for the good.

-Ashley

Inspiration

So, last weekend I was able to visit the Seattle Temple, and ever since, I’ve been feeling so inspired to write! If I were focused enough, I could probably write at least one song every day! Unfortunately life gets in the way sometimes and I have a lot to get done that isn’t music related! But I want to set a goal date soon for when I’d like to have my album finished. I’ll keep you posted.

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I found an this video on my YouTube channel about Sore Muscles and how they are similar to challenges we go through in life. I feel like I should share it and I hope you get as much out of it as I have.


Can you believe January is almost over? Where does the time go? (Hey! That sounds like a song!)

-Ash

Writing

Hello, friends!

I hope you all had a great holiday!

I’ve been doing a LOT of writing this month. Music and lyrics come really easily to me. My job is to sort through them all and organize them into songs and focus for long enough to FINISH!

I thought I might be using my guitar a lot, but I’ve found the piano seems easier to write with. I can’t wait to share some of these songs with all of you!

In the mean time, I want to do at least one cover every month on YouTube. (www.youtube.com/iloveapiano) Do any of you have requests? I’d love to sing a cover that YOU want to hear. Leave me a comment below!

In other news, I’m loving on my kids SO much lately. They are so much fun, and I try to remind myself every day that they’ll only be this age once. Trying to soak it all in!

Make today fabulous!

~Ashley

Getting Started!

It’s 12/12/12 today! What a perfect day to get started on my new blog!

For those who don’t know, I’m Ashley! I love to sing anywhere, anytime. Music is my heart and soul. I’ve recently had a breakthrough. Music is so personal to me, and so I’ve been afraid to share it with the world. In all my other pursuits I’ve been able to put myself out there without fear of judgement, simply because I didn’t care what anyone else thought about all of those other things. I wasn’t emotionally invested in any way. My music is tied to me emotionally, but that’s what makes it so important to me and what makes me feel so passionate about sharing it!

So, now I’m ready to open up my heart. I’m ready to share my music with you!

I look forward to sharing this journey with you!

-Ash