She Still Asks If She Can Sit On My Lap <3

So, I didn’t feel super productive today. I didn’t do ANY songwriting, I did bare minimum in cleaning house and cooking. I folded clothes, but didn’t put any of them away, so there’s a pile on the couch and in a basket on the floor. I didn’t attend any conference calls or webinars, although I had some on the schedule (thank heavens for recordings). I’ve been sick the last few days and I still don’t feel like I’m back at 100%.

However, one thing that I did do today, more than I do on any other day, was spend time with my kids. I lingered with them a little longer. I let them climb on me. I sat and watched their cartoons with them. I hugged them, tickled them, kissed them a little more than usual.

And you know what? I feel really happy. I laughed with my baby. I snuggled with my boy. I read books to my kids before bed. I let go of the guilt that I would normally have.

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How many more years of giggles and little feet will I have? My son still gives me hugs and kisses before he gets on the bus. My daughter still asks if she can sit on my lap. My children still reach out for me, cry for me when they’re hurt, and come to me with their problems. They still need my help, and willingly (usually) ask for it.

My heart is full tonight as I think of how blessed I am to be the mother to such wonderful children. It can be a challenge, but days like today make it SO worth the frustration, pain, and tears. I think I’ll make more days like this.

And maybe I will write a song about it.

-Ashley

 

 

Disappointment

I’m working on a song about how you feel when you can’t seem to do anything right. You don’t want to disappoint the people you love.

Whether it’s a parent, a spouse, a friend, or even God, we all want to be enough.

But you know what I’ve learned? IMG_20121129_112816

You can impress anyone you want, but until you allow yourself to be impressed by your own actions, it won’t mean anything to you.

Can you see the things you do that are amazing? Or are you short-selling yourself?

You have to BELIEVE you are enough.

When you decide to stop bashing all of the imperfect things about yourself and start being impressed by all the good things you do, you will be much more HAPPY.

To be honest, the song I’m writing doesn’t have to say all of this. This is something I’m passionate about. I wish I could sit down with every girl who sits and calls herself mean things and STOP HER.

You are enough!

Your best is enough!

And the only one who needs to see and know that is you!

Then your perspective will start to shift. You’ll slowly be able to recognize the things you do every day that are AMAZING.

Please don’t give up on this. Keep searching for the good.

-Ashley